ZOMG JOURNAL 8_8

So I heard...

2008-05-23T01:31:46Z

Itachi had a lover.

Seriously.

Oh wait, did I spoil that for you? xD Sorry.

FINALLY ignore fangirling

2008-05-10T12:19:10Z

I FINALLY GOT ALMOST ALL OF PIGEON'S SASODEI DJ.

Crap, where the hell do I find "RE"?! D:< It's the only one I don't have.. .<_<

~leaving

2008-04-29T08:00:14Z

Darn cruise trip. <_<;

How can it stop by ALMOST EVERY FREAKING country in Asia except Japan?!

-________________________-;

*2-3 weeks*

brb complaining.

Letter of an Unborn Child

2008-04-16T09:15:09Z

Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap. He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken. I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened.

I was so excited when I began realizing my existence. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.

Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bond between you and me. Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much.

One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy. That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean monster came into that warm comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.

Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.

Then the monster started ripping my arm off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all your tears go away.

I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.

I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone. The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is; I guess that's the name of the monster.

I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful. It sucked my arm and legs off and finally got all of me. It as impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die.

Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster. Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.

Please be careful.

Love,
Your Baby Girl

yaaaay uchihacest

2008-04-12T07:31:32Z

\0/ I knew that Itachi really was a good person, I wonder if he committed suicide to be able to transfer his techniques to Sasuke? o-O?

I hooppeee he's not dead... ~~Although there's no chance that's actually possible~~

Ever since Sasuke killed Deidara, I hated him... But now that he killed a person who loves him dearly, I hate him beyond words. So, okay, he was ignorant, let that be his excuse to say "I didn't mean to kill him!"

But saying that wouldn't bring him back now would it?

And now Sasuke's gonna work double time on restoring his clan.. I'm betting that Madara expired already. <_<;;;;;;;;;;;;;; -end pointless journal-

YAY SOMEBODY DIED SO I MIGHT GO TO JAPAN LOL

2008-03-26T12:13:57Z

Call me batshit insane for I'm rejoicing at the fact that he died or else my relatives WOULDN'T have a reason to go to Japan just to visit his funeral.

Now my auntie's going to Japan.

And she's asking ME if I want to go with her.

YES.

YES I DO.

Now how do I has VISA? orz

No, I don't. orz

Either my parents go insane and actually get me one and buy me a ticket,
or..
I ask my aunt to buy stuff for me! ^-^

Thing is, I don't know where to buy 0_o;;;

If anyone knows WHERE TO BUY STUFF IN JAPAN *in Tokyo*, tell me! (LOL tell me if you want something also~! ^^)

*Where do you buy doujinshi?
*Would it be possible to just name the pairing and the series, and would that be sufficient to find doujinshi of it?

PLEASE SHARE INFO'S O-O; I don't have much time left since I'm not sure when she leaves! DX

Are you gonna join the LJ strike?

2008-03-20T11:23:50Z

Title says it all.. :|

So are you?

I'm scared. OTL;;;; Help?

2008-03-07T07:13:29Z

I just found contrail on ebay, and it's gonna be shipped to my US address. '-'
I bought a lot of stuff through a deputy service, unfortunately, one is about to hit "30 days" storage, and needs to be moved out soon.

Thing is..

I'm REALLY REALLY PARANOID AND SUSPICIOUS of the MAILING SYSTEM HERE IN THE PHILIPPINES.

Those bastards at the post office STEAL your items whether it's insured or not.
And I JUST can't have the doujinshi I bought get stolen just like..THAT. :<
And to make things even worse, I don't even live in Manila (which decreases your chances of it being stolen) ...

Shipping to the US is safe, I'm confident in that, especially if you use tracking service..
But here, NO MATTER WHAT YOU USE, there's still 60% chance of it being stolen.

So what do you recommend?
I have them shipped to my US address, and have my relatives forward it to me,
or..

Take the chance and use EMS (the safest and most secure one, BUT still not foolproof) and have it directly shipped to me?

I'm going to have 2 batches of shipments... To test each one out. :< But if I can avoid that, I WILL. (I DON'T WANT MY PIGEON DOUJIN STOLEN.. PLEASE NOT THAT ONE. ;__________;)

Advice would be appreciated.

D:

2008-02-23T13:25:54Z

o.o;;

Stupid Paypal limit. D:

I DON'T WANNA WAIT UNTIL MARCH FOR THE STUPID CONFIRMATION NUMBER FROM THEIR STUPID EXTENDED USE ENROLMENT PROGRAM.

That's good news to the paranoid, and to those who have online access to their statements.

Which I'm not part of.

Oh, btw.

Does anyone know where to buy CONTRAIL or ANYTHING from the same artist as long as it contains Sasori? ;_;

Or what about ANY art from Pigeon? (no, not the doujins, but did anybody save any art from her website? D:)

Stupid dead internet and stupid people who show off the doujinshi too much. (I have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AGAINST people who show off doujinshi, BUT AT least... DON'T LET THE ARTIST KNOW ABOUT IT. Sacrifice a brain cell or two. <_< You may put sneak previews and stuff, but if you're scanning it..you have my gratitude and I am forever indebted.. And I wish you luck hoping the artist wouldn't find it. ;p)

:D

2008-02-16T11:21:28Z

I'm planning to leave this other online community I used to be so active on. x)
I'm planning to go and finally "reside" here on Livejournal, since my interest in art is diminishing. D:

(Yes, that online community I mentioned is Deviantart.com)

I was only interested in the journals of people, and I was too tired and bored of commenting about their art and stuff.

I usually commented on their journals so..
it's a sign that I should try this place. :)

Hopefully, since I'm so talkative and I NEVER EVER shut up, I'd make friends? xD

Darn Paypal, now I have to raise the limit. Thing is, the next limit is on March.

WHICH SUCKS. D:

Because my limit is 50$ now. D:

I hope EMS insures my items well. 6_6 And I hope they don't get stolen once they reach Manila. :(

Finally bought doujinshi!

2008-02-14T02:58:41Z

ladymultiWaaah thanks so much skinst_bomb for all the info about Paypal! o-(^_^)-o

Well, here in the Philippines, it's much more complicated when you use Paypal, you can't do ANYTHING.

EVER.

Without a credit card.

And now, the only thing I'm worried right now, is the shipping.

Thievery ENSUES in the Philippines, ESPECIALLY MANILA. (Glad I don't live there though)

Here are the two doujinshis I won...

I'd most likely have them shipped to the USA first, then have it forwarded to the Visayas area. *sigh*
Why are thieves so abundant anyway?! Why does life have to be hard for some people, they'd actually steal doujinshi and other misc.items?

Oh, and my Internet died for a while (2 days to be exact) and in the process, MISSED 4 DOUJINSHI ON GOOD BARGAIN. :< (Pigeon's last doujinshi, Cattail *thanks ladymulti *, 2 doujinshi by Westriver)

NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU (cries a river)

I hope whoever stole the 550 meters of our neighborhood phoneline's children and family members DIE so that that person wouldn't have any reason to steal anymore.

xD

Btw, other than ebay, yahoo japan auctions, where else can you get good doujinshi? :)

Finally getting a bank account.! :D Need help!

2008-01-27T14:09:50Z

Wow..

Asking my dad was nearly the easiest things I did in my life. o_o

I was asking my mom about the whole "I wanna start a bank account" thing, but she's all "But the starting balance is expensive, and the bank might to bankrupt if you're not careful/ why are you doing this...." ..

But I figured,

hey... she never handles bank thingies..

My dad does.

And so, I just asked him (while we were at the mall)

"Daddy, can I open a bank account? I wanna save money for shopping when we go to Thailand this summer.

And I'm trying to control myself from spending too much money on junk food."

Dad: Sure. After we buy this (he was buying medicine), we'll go inquire.

And so we did.

And now the only thing I have to do is to:

Give them my study load.
Give my school ID.
Give a pic of myself.
Give a copy of the birth ceritficate.

And there. I have my bank account. ^3^
I didn't think it'd be that easy. 8D;;;; (I guess when my mom said, "Your dad is a very nice person, just talk to him nicely. And use reason.", I didn't think she'd really mean that because my dad looks really strict and mean. 6_6)

Oh well. Yay me! 8D Now, I'll just have to get all those things, save up ~~and starve myself to death, try to live on at least 20 pesos (that's like 49 US centavos)~~ and finally buy doujinshi online. :)

Thing is, if ever I do get an Ebay account, I wonder if sellers would be willing to sell if my rating is still 0, or I'm still a complete newbie. -_-

Oh, and does Paypal accept any bank account? I use BDO, or Banco de Oro... *w* *is hopeful they would*

Experienced buyers, can you help me out?

master_atem @ 2008-01-06T13:29:00

2008-01-06T13:30:32Z

Ignore my previous entry.

Seriously.

I was a mindless, close-minded, mean, stupid 13, year old back then. *points to the date*

Back then, I was a noob. :)

But I wanna keep it for sentimental value. :p

-Louie